Halloween

October 31st is just around the bend, and this is the first year I won't be trick-or-treating. That's not to say I won't have my share of follies. I'll be in Greenville, NC, home to what is supposedly the best Halloween celebration on the east coast. I'll be sure to take many mental notes and report back on the validity of that. 

Doyne and I are coordinating our costumes. I'm a young child, complete with spinner hat and knee socks, while he shall be my pedophiliac tempt, beckoning me to him via candy taped to his genital region. Should be in the running for best costume duo.

This holiday used to conjure up feelings of joy only rivaled by Christmas. In fact, I think I actually preferred Halloween. I can remember being in first grade, and Halloween was once again on a Friday. I was sitting in Ms. Comer's classroom, literally about to shit myself thinking about the hours between 6:30 and 8:30 in which I would bounce around the neighborhood with David, Steve, and Dad, accumulating what I thought to be a just ridiculous amount of candy (later pictures reveal, that upon emptying of my satchel, the amount wasn't as large as I had remembered). Then I remember after it was finally time to come back in, I'd sort out my candy into chocolate and fruit piles, and then subdivide each type into a group of its own. I lived for that in first grade.

Also, when I think about past Halloweens I think about silly string. I also think about how I argued with a kid who swore that it was actually called "Silly Strink." I remember someone sprayed it on a street sign near my house, probably around that first grade Halloween. It was there for literally six years. I remember spraying it on my kitchen window and pissing my mom off really badly. 

Tea is getting me in the spirit of Halloween. I'm not sure why. I wish I had a pumpkin. Someone smashed one outside the suite the other day, purpose or culprit unknown to me. I wish I could have gotten to them before they did the deed and told them that if they were just going to smash it they could just give it to me instead. I can hardly believe that they bought a pumpkin just to smash it on a walk where all of about 15 people will see it.

So yeah, ECU for Halloween. Should be a good time.

Here's Johnny!

Many things have happened in my life. Revelations have been made, relationships have been dashed and new ones have been made, and previously dashed ones have been rekindled while others lay dismantled in the dust and grime of my not-so-distant past. I am accepting all that has happened slowly but surely. In due time I feel like I will be stronger. 

That isn't to say that I'm a mess right now. Aside from a bit of sleep anxiety every now and then in which I wake up with a start and, in my forever-hypochondriac state, think I just had a seizure, I'm doing quite fine. I've been going home a lot, and I like that. I think it's well-worth what has become a relatively reasonable $40 tank to see those that I miss, and those that miss me. It puts my mind and heart at ease. It lets me know that my base, the reason I'm still stable, is still out there.

I haven't been blogging recently, nor have I done much writing. I don't like trying to sort my thoughts out in a 12-point arial, times, what have you. Hence my short blog posts. Obviously I'm not putting that much out there. My mind's a good sorter of material, not needing its thoughts displayed on screen or paper to have a powerful release.

An update on me follows.

College is good. The ocean is good. My mind is getting better, as is my body. I didn't think I'd have to do so much rebuilding at such an early age, but then again, what can we account for these days? If someone told me a year ago 'hey man, this is what will be happening in your life a year from now,' I don't know if I would think I'd have it in me to cope with it. But I guess when it happens, you have no choice but to face it head-on. I've quit many things, but not this.

Now to the smaller things.

Our frat got reinstated. As of November 7th, I will officially be a member of the Delta Tau Delta Fraternity, Zeta Tau Chapter.

I have started swimming again. I'm training with Waves of Wilmington, a club team down here. I am going to try to walk on for the school next year. I'm glad I didn't give up on this, because I always felt like I could have done so much more in the sport, and now I'm going to.

I have been following the UNC Football team closely, and have gone to every home game except the one against UConn. We're playing quite well, and could easily be undefeated. We beat Boston College this weekend, and afterward I stayed up at the Hill with Lyle. Good times were had by all. Good to be buds with that guy again.

I have seen two Perpetual Groove concerts in the last week. I am seeing Minus the Bear in Raleigh on Wednesday, and perhaps Cool Kids in Chapel Hill the day before. Be jealous. And yes, I realize how homosexual I just sounded.

I got a Bl(Cr)ackberry.

I now drink coffee and tea.

There are more things, and I will update as they become available in my mind.

It's now 12:16 and my schedule hasn't been the best lately, so I think I'll begin the sleeping process. Actually, I take it back, Celestial Seasonings has already been consumed so the process has already begun. I'm looking forward to getting in bed and reading a good book. God, haven't done that in awhile, but the prospect of it right now is pretty damn glorious. I think I'll open my window as well (so climb on in ya crazy kook!).